limbo land, we have another visitor... (05 05 2004)

well, shit happens. and this time it has to happen to me. i accidently had a conversation wth abg. hisham. and that turn me into an 'o.k.' wreck. o.k. in terms of now i know the 'why' of my recent 'indiscretions' that turns me into the wreck that i am now. easily said: a kid would'nt know why he/she is sent to live wth his/her grandparents for life. and then his/her grandparents tell's him/her why. but what the kid can't understand is the 'reason' because only his/her parents knows it. and now that he/she is old enough, he/she sets a lifelong quest for his/her parents for the 'reason'. that's the case of me currently. but i'll put the 'quest' on hold. i still need to understand the 'why'. so another shocker that i had was izham's announcement to retire from music. it thrown me back a while. i mean, it's safe to say that besides hafeez, he's responsible for where i am right now. he's my competition. and somehow now i'm having a sudden writer's block. funny. maybe it's called a 'mourn'. he told me not to tell anyone but i did told efry about it. and he's in the same state of shock as i am. oh by the way, efry's doing great in MMU. got a swell dude as a roommate. hope he'll enjoy his first varsity year as much as i do. hmm...akim's having chicken pox. or measles. i dunno. but he's really sick n weak. pity him. hope he'll get better soon. my mp3 collection is 'alive'. it keeps on 'multiplying' everyday. but i'm very pleased wth my collection right now. it's very eclectic i might say. oh yeah, i bought Xing-Wu on the day that me n efry went out for a show. we met marsha and dora in some restaurant. they've just finished surfing. damn..missed it. oh and while i was listening to Xing-Wu in Fantasy, sha, one of efry's former colleague when he was at shakeys showed up. she's pretty. i've started exchanging mails wth Yin Pin, 1 half of Zai De which appeared on Xing-Wu. he replied wth utmost sincerity. i appreciate it a lot. okay, now the happy part of my 'wrecked' life. mimi. she has been a sweetheart. i enjoyed chatting wth her and i am pleased n flattered that she feels the same. coincidently, since we're both confused virgos, we have quite a lot of common and mutual interest. the funny thing is, the only thing that we're jealous about each other is food. and i seem to be winning most of the time. it's interesting to know that she does appreciate music n poetry just as same as i do. at least for the very least. now i'm chating wth her every single day. i'll look forward to this relationship back in bote. limbo land, i'll be staying here for a while.....