Sad You Down

I'm having my brighter times these days I suppose. Virgos unite.

It's always the case when I'm out there in the sun, the one's I cherish tends to get stuck in the tarp. It's always vice versa. Jehan unexpectedly gave me a miss call yet again. Sensing there's something odd, I texted her since she mentioned a few days back that she's having trouble with her studies. She feels she's lagging behind everyone else. So this time around, yes. It's the same shit. I do hope that she'll do well as she desires. She deserves it for being her determined self.

-Happy 19th Fuzzy-

CheerMeUp

God. I'm really worried about her. Wished her happy burstday on text last night and it ended up to be another Y!-ish session albeit this time, the shit's drop dead serious. I don't know how and why but I somehow felt weird that she didn't reply my earlier miss calls. Maybe last night explains it all. She's not the only one guilty for the whole 'faking it' part. I'm doing it. Yes, the after-effect is emotionally crushing but being who I really am, it's not easy for me to blurt out my conflicts each time it occurs. Mum's the word. Maybe that explains why most of the time I'm being regarded as someone very dependable, someone in the path of success. And that doesn't help at all. All in all, just so you'd know, I'm always here for you Fuzzy. Always. God-willing.

I did mention to a friend once that I'm always attracted or seems attractive to those with crisis. It's not that I mind people pouring their shits at me (Not literally, mind you). I don't mind at all. It's the least I can do to repay the value of our friendship. Too bad it's usually not a two-way thingie. When I listen to theirs I tend to forget my own. That's the 'best' part of it I presume. Their experiences have a greater influence rather than mine in my songs. And I tend to get myself very deeply involved in it. I guess that explains why it is hard for me to write lite-hearted songs. Often being questioned by Amir for that.

You can be angry with anything, but you can't be happy with everything

I'll always remember that. Thanks Ayah.

So, here's to the winding road ahead of us all. Happy hunting everyone.

-I need you. Whomever you may be. I need you-